So yes, blog selfies are a bit silly. But this year is all about confidence and now is one of those times where I truly feel beautiful, inside and out. Life is full of so much passion and hope. I wish to always feel just as inspired as I do in this very moment. Inner peace changes everything.
Here’s to the good days. They help to overcome the bad ones.
Forget about enlightenment. Sit down wherever you are and listen to the wind that is singing in your veins. Feel the love, the longing and the fear in your bones. Open your heart to who you are, right now, not who you would like to be. Not the saint you’re striving to become. But the being right here before you, inside you, around you. All of you is holy. You’re already more and less than whatever you can know. Breathe out, look in, let go.
Growing up is simply realizing that you are finally ready to do all the things you always dreamed of doing, but were too afraid to try. It’s exhilarating.
Today I finished day ten of a 30-day hot yoga challenge. I’m proud of myself for letting go of my fears and letting my body work it’s magic. I feel so enlightened and I know I am literally transforming my body from the inside out. All I know is that I feel incredibly strong. Mind, body and soul. Things are exciting. My mind is more free lately and it feels wonderful.
I’ve decided from now on to mostly dedicate this blog to the things in my life that I am thankful for. To keep myself on track, moving forward and positive.
Today I am grateful for my new roommate. He is great addition to my life and my household. He has taken two yoga classes with me this week and tonight we created a delicious dinner together. Also, he’s just a nice guy.
Today I tried Spin class at the new YMCA that I recently joined. I had also done yoga earlier in the day. Spin was fun and super intense. I am grateful that I possessed the strength for all this physical activity in one day. I am continually amazed by the things my body is capable of.
I cleaned and organized almost everything I own today. I am grateful for the clarity I feel when my space is in order.
Today was a good one. I plan to make tomorrow even better.
If you want to be sad, live in the past.
If you want to be anxious, live in the future.
If you want to be peaceful, live in the now.
I’ve had all these things running through me for weeks now. Countless drafts and attempts but nothing would come out. Until now.
Summertime has been good to me this time around. I’ve spent some blissful days on the beach with the warmth of the sun nurturing my skin as well as my soul. There have been picnics and rooftop bonding time with the wonderous humans in my life. I traveled home and spent time with my family; always a blessing.
There is this tendency for me to live in the past and/or future at times. I believe we all get caught up in these traps, it’s difficult not to. Realistically, the only thing we can ever count on is the “now”.
Yoga helps me balance out all the craziness that constantly pulses throughout me. If ever I’ve believed in any method of therapy, yoga is it.
I feel that a lot of the thoughts I have are unexplainable to many people I come in contact with, even those close to me. I’ve learned that accepting things as they are is the only thing that settles me.
Why do I want more? Why do I wish for what others have? Why can’t I just breathe it all in and stay grateful? I still have so much to learn.
Maybe it’s time to move on again. This city I love is capable of holding me back and creating so much tension and chaos.
In my mind, transitioning my life to another new place is the easy part; starting over is what I’m good at. It’s saying goodbye to the old that leaves me feeling so weighted…
Currently, life is good. My days are full and balanced with a good mix of hard work, friends and fun. I’m able to support myself on a barista’s salary even in this ridiculously expensive city. I’m taking care of myself in every way possible, more so than I really ever have in my adult life.
I can’t stop talking about how much yoga has changed me for the better. I’ve noticed an overall calm about myself on an everyday basis. Life will always have its many stress-ors but I feel more equipped to handle whatever comes along these days. I literally feel my body and mind constantly gaining strength. It amazes me how something so intense and challenging can lead you to a path of peace.
I had this moment on my walk home the other night. I felt a part of me wanting more; it was almost an aching. I realized I am no longer satisfied with what I have. I’m grateful, but I want more…
I have dreams of sharing my life with someone else, feeling the love of another, being a mother, building a story that I am proud of. I know these moments may come and they may not. So for now I’m working on being the best person I can possibly be.
Sometimes I feel like it is impossible to reach all the people who mean the most. Distances have become a big part of my everyday reality. I feel so emotional lately, like time is somehow running faster than ever. I just don’t want to run out of time.
So I guess I’ve been extra tough on myself lately. All these new journeys I’ve taken on and I’m determined to make something happen; to move forward in my self-improvement. There are those things that remain beyond my control and that is difficult for me to accept at times. So, in a way, these new endeavors represent the parts of me that are strong, able and willing. I’m not competing with anyone nor do I have anything to prove. I’m doing it all for me.
Bikram yoga has proven to be the most challenging and rewarding thing I’ve ever done for myself. It brings everything out of me. Every hidden feeling, every unhealthy thought, every single emotion. It’s not uncommon for me to be in tears at some point during class. This is the most important outlet in my life right now. There are so many things that I feel I cannot discuss with anyone else around me but within these 90 minutes I am free to feel it all. And it always feels better afterwards.
My body is going through many adjustments. The flexibility happens slowly and I’m still in a lot of pain much of the time. But I can feel how much strength I’m gaining. In addition to yoga, I’m working at changing my diet once again. I’ve decided to re-introduce eggs here and there and I just began a 21-day sugar detox.
I feel so small sometimes. It helps to have a grasp on my own wants and needs. I’m empowered by the control I finally feel I have in my life.
Tonight I faced a new challenge. One I have been fearful of for some time now. I attended my first hot yoga class. It was undoubtedly hard work but very therapeutic. It was almost as if I could feel things inside of me melting away with every bit of dripping sweat.
Lately I view my life as a whirlwind. Definitely a fun whirlwind, but not close to subsiding anytime soon. It’s like when you see someone in the distance and you can’t tell if they are walking closer towards you or further away. I’m not sure which way I’m headed.
There are so many good things that I am doing for myself. Self-awareness continues to be my greatest concern. As much as I intend on living in the moment, I still catch my mind wandering.
The gift of yoga is the only thing that I’ve found that keeps me balanced. I’m able to accept things, let in the good, let go of the bad. All I know is that I finally understand that I am good enough. Just as I am. That alone is enough to keep me going every single day. I feel strong.
Reminders for this upcoming week:
If it hurts, that means it is working.
Nothing really worth it ever comes easy.
My body is capable of anything.
I am as strong as I decide to be.
My body can run many more miles after my mind wants to give up.
The process is progress.
I’m back in the fitness game full strength. My whole entire body is in pain but it’s always worth it.
“Yoga is not about being bendy…
It’s about showing up to your mat consistently not knowing whats going to happen and being okay with that. It’s about believing that you can do anything even if its the scariest most impossible thing you could ever dream of. It’s about uncovering who you really are. It’s about being kind to yourself so that you can be kind to others. Yoga is about discovering that most of the crazy thoughts in your head are not true. It’s about being healthy without pushing yourself to your limit. It’s about slowing down to get strong. It’s about breathing and moving and smiling on the inside. It’s the hardest thing I’ve done but the best thing for me.”