So I am currently hyped up on way too much coffee, New York City is covered in a fluffy white blanket, I’m cuddled inside enjoying the gorgeous view AND I made my first ever snow angel earlier; I am in the greatest mood.
I’ll be a college freshman in approximately three weeks. I know that I will be learning many things but honestly I’ve already learned the most important one. This lesson is internal. I love and appreciate myself. That’s all. Nothing more.
I think sometimes people hear the word “meditation” and it may appear so obscure, unknown and out there that they are unwilling to try. I think if all the world took the time to meditate, in any form of their choice, we would have so much less hate and hurt. To connect with yourself in meditation form is a true gift. One I am very passionate about. All anxiety melts away with a few deep breaths and true focus on self. That ability to let go is so important.
All the past make sense and I have trust in my future. I am being taken care of in all accounts and I feel true love from those closest to me. There is nothing more I need and to wish for more seems silly and selfish. My picture is different from the future I envisioned but I’m having a wonderful time building a different one.
Much love to you all. Namaste.
These last several weeks have been nothing sort of extraordinary. I came, went, saw, laughed, learned, explored, discovered, shared, pushed, coped and conquered.
I’m very fortunate to work with an amazing as well as eclectic group of individuals. They have exposed me to some very different things and ways of thinking. In addition to just being great people, when I am around them, I always feel like I belong. On an everyday basis I can feel misunderstood but when I’m around the people I work with, I feel right at home. It never matters that I’m a thirty-one year old “Barista” that still has no idea what she wants to do with her life, because they are all right there with me; they get it.
Back in September, one of my friends who I work with put on his first official dance recital since being in NY. He’s a great guy with so much talent.
I finally gave EHarmony a try and even went on a date. It was nice. I had fun. Dating had started to resemble a foreign language so it was nice to get back out there. As to whether or not it will happen again any time soon… who knows. Life is full of surprises.
Last month I had the wonderful opportunity to travel upstate with my good friend Caitlin for her annual “Family Fall Weekend”. Every year she gathers friends and family to spend a weekend in Accord, NY in her warm and welcoming childhood home. It was a weekend that I will not soon forget surrounded by amazing souls that truly made my heart happy.
I first saw Fiona Apple perform live back in 2006. I’ve always had such a love for her music, voice and mostly her lyrics. So when a chance came to she her again this year, I was ecstatic. Words cannot describe how raw, real, emotional and inspirational the show was. All I can say is that it was extremely touching and I enjoyed every moment. Once in a lifetime experience to see her in New York City.
Probably the most priceless moment I’ve had lately is when my sister and my Mother came to visit me at the same time. We had a week full of adventures and it was especially important to me that I had the chance to introduce my Mom to the wonderful ins and outs of my favourite city and also for her to understand what my life is like out here. When Tiffany and I first moved away back in 2010 she said she never had any desire to visit NY. I am so thankful she changed her mind. The time we spent together was so important to me. I love my Mom so much and miss her everyday. Equally rad was to be able to see Tiffany again. It’s hard to be so far away from her all the time. She’s my rock and always has been.
Storm Sandy was the most intense natural disaster that I have ever experienced first hand. Living through a real life tragedy really taught me a lot about human kind and especially the power of people when they join together to push through tough times. The city is still struggling and will be for quite some time but it is wonderful to see how many organizations are committed to helping those in need. I’m proud to be a New Yorker every day. There is so much strength here.
Barely a week after Sandy and we got hit with our first snow storm of the season. What a crazy surprise. I have this love for snow that just wont quit. Sure it’s cold, but so beautiful and mysterious.
I was lucky enough to visit the famous “Carnegie Hall” to see the New York Pops Symphony with my friend Sloan who had a press pass. It was a religious experience that stimulated all the senses and put me in the perfect mood. The night I shared with Sloan immediately following was just as fun. I am so fortunate to have such fabulous friends here.
Between all these happenings it’s been my goal to continually gather up all that this city has to offer. The holidays are just around the corner and this is my favorite time of year to walk the streets of New York. It feels powerfully magical even on the days when you are aren’t quite feeling it.
Here’s to all the other firsts in my near future. I plan on seeing and doing it all.