The Good Stuff

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Sometimes you need to slow down and appreciate just how far you have come.

That’s exactly what I made time for this morning. Sitting at a french cafe in the heart of Chelsea, I reflected on the past few weeks. There is definite evidence of progress. I have been participating in and enjoying Bikram yoga for close to three months now. My friend and I signed up for a 5k Summer series in Prospect Park. Every other Wednesday throughout the summer we will run a 5k. Ran one so far and although it was rough getting back into it, I felt proud to be doing something I love again. Running always makes me feel so strong. I made a commitment to cut sugar out of my diet and successfully went a whole three weeks without a drop of it. During that time I also consumed no alcohol and while I did have a few beers after my detox was over in honor of celebration, I have decided to quit drinking almost indefinitely. I don’t feel that need to escape that I once did which alcohol used to provide me and mostly just feels like I am poisoning my body whenever I do drink. I always feel worse. I only want to participate in activities that are beneficial to my body; I want to be good to myself. I established a personal doctor again and have been in for a few visits, it has been years since I’ve paid any attention to those important details of my life. This morning I was informed that I lost 12 pounds and drastically improved my blood pressure since my previous visit. I can only continue to work hard at boosting my health. Because all that matters to me is that I am healthy; physically, mentally and spiritually.

Aside from the focus on my health and wellness, I also recently received a raise after I obtained my New York City Health Academy certification in Food Safety. It feels good to be able to buy a few more groceries and not work so hard to pay the bills. I’m also looking forward to being able to travel a bit more often, so long as I can afford it.

I’m close to a month away from a trip home. I cannot wait to see my loved ones, have some fun and laughter and recharge my spirit.

I believe that life is mostly about timing. Sometimes things happen at all the wrong moments. But then again, sometimes it all works out. I feel strongly that there are amazing things about to happen in my future. I’m not waiting around or anything. My everyday adventures are more than I could ask for. I have the best friends, most supportive and loving family, an open mind, a big heart and the desire to always experience new things constantly and learn as much as I can. I believe the universe is taking good care of me as well as all of the hard work I have been doing.

Oh and it has officially been one year since I moved back to New York. I am still so in love with this amazingly versatile city.
I am a very lucky and grateful woman.

Beyond What I Ever Imagined

 

It’s a brisk wintry night and I’m safe, cozy and warm indoors; staying at a friend’s house.  She is the true meaning of hospitality and friendship.  So many people will say they are there for you whenever you may need them.  But in the end, who actually lives up to these promises.  All I know is that, in my time of need, she was there.

 

The last few months have been a test and I am undoubtedly still making my way through.  But it’s all these obstacles that make the journey that much more worth it.

 

I’m currently reading the most wonderful book titled “The Last Lecture”.  It’s written by Randy Pausch, a man dying of pancreatic cancer.  It’s a book about living, the things that matter and simply appreciating life.  I recommend that you all read it.

 

“It’s not about how to achieve your dreams, it’s about how to lead your life, … If you lead your life the right way, the karma will take care of itself, the dreams will come to you.” 

 

“When you’re screwing up and nobody says anything to you anymore that means they’ve given up on you…you may not want to hear it but your critics are often the ones telling you they still love you and care about you and want to make you better.” 

 

“It took a long time, but I’ve finally figured it out. When it comes to men who are romantically interested in you, it’s really simple. Just ignore everything they say and only pay attention to what they do.” 

 

“The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough. They’re there to stop the other people.” 

 

 

 

A couple of days ago, I lost my phone.  Meaning (funny story) it fell in the toilet while I was at a holiday party and now it won’t turn on.  I was only upset for one reason.  The first thing I though of?  My pictures, all of my beloved pictures…  If there is one thing that keeps me going on a daily basis it is my self-documentation through the photos I have taken.  I’ve had that phone almost as long I have lived in New York.  Almost two years and over 3000 pictures later and here I am, almost devastated to lose that part of my journey, my vividly illustrated memories.

Perhaps it was just another brick wall.  There will be many more days, different adventures, countless new journeys and plenty of new pictures to keep my passion alive.  Tomorrow is always a brand new day.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Beautiful Disastrous Maze

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“Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they’ll notice. If they don’t, you know where you stand.”

I’m never shocked when people let me down. I just hate the fact that I put myself in a position to be let down in the first place.

Happiness

“That’s just it–you can’t drive it, you can’t wear it, you can’t live in it, you can’t drink it, smoke it, snort it, you can’t travel to it. Happiness is the experience of the journey. The experience of happiness is the result of how you look at things. When I look at something I say, can do, no problem; that’s not going to make me unhappy. Happiness is a choice!”

[Denis Waitley]