Maybe I’m feeling a little defeated as life has been unbelievably difficult to juggle. My strength has been replaced by a fragile state. Although it’s difficult to envision surviving the next month, of course I know I will. My spirit is low and I miss any sense of order that I once had. I’ve undoubtedly taken on too much at once but I know I will push through. I knew this would be challenging but could have never imaged it would be test me on this extreme level. Here’s to reaching the other side. I’m certainly not giving up.
First week observations: this journey is exhilarating, exhausting, wonderful and terrifying. I’m up for the challenge.
Approximately six months ago, I made a choice. I was ready to face my future. I decided it was time to change my life.
As far as support goes, the people in my life have been nothing short of amazing. As intimidating as the whole process has felt from time to time, my friends have been there through every step.
Tomorrow I begin the next chapter of my life. I shall enrich my mind with the wonder of knowledge that I have been longing for.
Grateful for the opportunity and full of hope. Tomorrow begins my college education. I have never been more proud and full of determination.
The time is now. I’m an official New York resident and I’m ready to move forward in my pursuit of happiness. I will start school in the Fall and I will be successful at whatever I choose. I have never been more determined to learn new things. Life will move forward no matter how hard I must push.
So I spent the day reflecting, took a walk in the rain, talked to one of my besties, took a lot of deep breathes, did some writing, listened to some new music and attempted to relax. All of these things really did help my overall demeanor. I feel better. This evening I started researching nursing schools. Hoping to start in the spring. I am going to do a 2 yr RN program and stay here until I finish school. Then I will move again, hopefully to my dream state. All I’ve ever wanted was to go back to school and build a better life for myself. It’s time to build my foundation for a brighter tomorrow.